Feeling Unburdened....Not

A hundred thoughts...music playin in the background...there is this sense of forebonding....seems like hope is slowly vanishing...when I feel that all was just a dream...jus illusion....something I am very prone 2...since I seem 2 have them all da time...dis urge n negativity...this feelin of loneliness...da laughter all but forced as though trying to mask the pain from myself while all along it jus erodes at my soul and sneaks in to trouble me...when I feel it is yet da same...when words betray you...patience reaches its limit....da need to talk...but nobody to talk to...to have doubts.... but nobody to share them with...da urge to stay quiet...but forced into talking...da madness to scream it all out...the frustration clamouring to be let out of the thick walls....where faith is only in da fact tht there is no faith in anything else...overwhelmed by emotions...but nobody to show them too...the excitement died cos it wasn't shared...da fears haunting me...reclusing me into a shell...a zone where it all jus stays there...this confusion n dilemma leaves me with the feelings uptil the brim but not a word, not a sound, not a tear yet my eyes sayin everything, Sleep there but never letting me rest in peace...to tht elusive thing tht i don't have...to everything that went wrong...pls don't come to scew up again...n to that which consumes me....pls try to show me some meaning....

....praying for hope n lots more.