Yet to be named

And she looked up just in time

To see it curve around the bend

The vast and serene sea

As she was plunged back into concrete and tree

She had made a choice

Between that which she loved none more than another

It was opportunity cost she knew

Knowing she will long for it

But wait for the next time

Make a choice again

Fully aware it could be either way

Despairing neither

Sure she would catch a glimpse of the other

*** It's a poem which you can interpret in many ways but the choices here are between her love for the sea and her love for reading....a simple choice she makes every morning on her way to work.

Unnamed as yet

She ran as fast as she could

Fleeing from it

Horror masked on her face

Afraid to face it

Was she ready to fight it

Was she ready to accept it

The person it made her

The person it would make her

The faded cobbled stones engulfed her

As she ran from one wall to another

They twisted and folded on her

Threatening to never end

The darkness pressing in

She ran faster

As the voices in her head grew

Crippling her

She ran faster

But the more she ran the more they grew

To stop was impossible

Twas certain death

She cud not afford it once more

But wasn’t this running also death

Cos who she was escaping would never leave her

She could do all she wanted it would stay

Cos no one can escape themselves you see

No one can escape themselves.

Curse of the Chrysalis

She looked in,

She looked beyond,

But she couldn't figure...

This was not for her!

It was meant to be different...

It was supposed to be magical...

But she still felt like that little girl,

Trying to make her place, among the big girls...

Fighting, to get accepted.

But wasn't she supposed to grow up?

Let those demons pass,

Blossom into a butterfly...

Stronger from the struggle,

Vibrant with life and purpose,

Mesmerizing with the transformation!

Then why was she still wrapped up?

Entangled and lost...

Stuck in a limbo...

Neither girl nor woman,

She yearned to find herself

Flap those wings and soar away.

Awaken to the power within,

Embrace her Inner Soul,

Define her destiny...

But as she grew, so did the trappings.

It all seemed lies...

A fantasy world beyond her reach...

Her laments supressed within her,

She bore the curse of the chrysalis,

Wishing herself into a fantasy...

Masquerader

Time is your lover

Time is your enemy

Seductive in its essence

It teases with pace

It let's the memories fade

Or tortures with their vivid recall

Burning in desire your dreams

It crashes when you reach the present

It runs to the next hand

Daring the moment to be still

Pausing the pulse to 60

It feeds of the anxiety to reach the future

It mocks you on hindsight

The errors garish in their oddity

Fooling with predictions

It tic tocs with no "NOW"

Time is your lover

Time is your enemy

Seductive in its essence

It teases with pace

From The Shadows

It got darker

The noose tightened further

The screams started echoing.

It got darker

The scorpion gave its sting

The screams started echoing.

It got darker

The knife stabbed her life force

The screams started echoing.

It got darker

The gun shot pierced through her

The screams started echoing.

It got darker

The snake venom spread slowly further

The screams started echoing.

It got darker

The fire consumed her in its flames

The screams started echoing.

It got darker

The water snuffed her last breath out

The screams started echoing.

It got darker

She did this to herself

The screams stopped echoing.

It got darker

She smiled all throughout

The screams stopped echoing.

It got darker

She untwisted her soul

The screams stopped echoing.

It got darker

She snuffed out the false light

The screams stopped echoing.

It got darker

She shunned misery at the door

The screams stopped echoing.

It got darker

She looked for a life change

The screams stopped echoing.

It got darker

She embraced herself

The screams stopped echoing.

And Then

Its when u hit rock bottom

Its when u do wht u know is a dont

Its when the urge puts you to shame

Its when everything on the surface seems sane

Its when no time is a bane

Its when the time left u don't have

Its when hope plays a crafty game

Its when u don't listen to heart or brain

Its when the pulse goes shot

Its when fear forms a knot

Its when u take the dreaded step

Its when careful musings cost a mishap

Its when you lose control

Its when u still havent given it up at all

Its when the rage brings out

Its when it still is suppressed no doubt

Its when you just don't care

Its when you don't know whether to dare

Its when the moment passes

Its when all that strikes is what if's

Its when everything is a blessing

Its when thats the truth starts undressing

Its when the doubts creep up again

Its when u wish it would all end

Its when life takes the expected bend

Its when u push too hard

Its when that push is yet laggard

Its then u say FINE

Its then u say I'll give up or find MINE

Its then the crossroads come on u BLIND

Its then the shivers go up your SPINE

Its then ....Its then....

Awakening

Its jus a feeling but if I hold onto it maybe it will work! Jus have to beat myself at not leavin it halfway. build on it till it becomes bigger than me and that day will I smile in joy and happiness cos dat day I will have proven 2 maself, Dat day will I have won truly cos it is urself that is the biggest competitor, ur biggest obstacle and when u win over urself is da day u must rejoice cos everyone else is an illusion to distract u from the real victory! It will happen no matter what ,n a small battle won is dat ma dreams are BACK again, i feel maself out of ma slumber, out of hibernation, likeim on theverge of sumin n before it dies out i grab it n unlock ma passion again! For thisit is not me alone who did it, it ws life, it was the good and the bad but it also was two of themost amazing friends who were there at the right moment because they're always there ifineed to reach out, both of whom in two days made me realize in their own ways, i wont say more for fear of jinxing it!

I pray and fortify and dream and believe tht I will find it , i will be it, and I will never say I wish at ma last breath!