And Then

Its when u hit rock bottom

Its when u do wht u know is a dont

Its when the urge puts you to shame

Its when everything on the surface seems sane

Its when no time is a bane

Its when the time left u don't have

Its when hope plays a crafty game

Its when u don't listen to heart or brain

Its when the pulse goes shot

Its when fear forms a knot

Its when u take the dreaded step

Its when careful musings cost a mishap

Its when you lose control

Its when u still havent given it up at all

Its when the rage brings out

Its when it still is suppressed no doubt

Its when you just don't care

Its when you don't know whether to dare

Its when the moment passes

Its when all that strikes is what if's

Its when everything is a blessing

Its when thats the truth starts undressing

Its when the doubts creep up again

Its when u wish it would all end

Its when life takes the expected bend

Its when u push too hard

Its when that push is yet laggard

Its then u say FINE

Its then u say I'll give up or find MINE

Its then the crossroads come on u BLIND

Its then the shivers go up your SPINE

Its then ....Its then....