....I aint doin nethin

Am supposed to be working on Bajaj turnaround strategy but jus doesn't seem to happen. I feel like I am underwater where everything around me is unrealistic...dunno wht but sumthing's wrong....can feel those feelings cumin bac...where I kno tht da screw up is ma fault i can stop it but 4 sum twisted reason m lettin it happen...am runnin away frm those who care n who would care....m runnin frm da world to nowhere...where I kno its gonna be da same all over again..everythin seems like a fake..dis time its me who's smilin and people think oh she must hav no problems in her life...foreva smilin and chirpy....but I hav ma doubts and ma biggest is wht am i doin right now...ma frnds are goin away n i ain't doin nethin to stop em....ma life is goin into da endless pit of loneliness and despair n I ain't doin nethin...da days are passin by w/o me realisin...am jus breathing but I don't think am livin

Faded feelings are back again
Tears are on the verge of a pouring rain
But all that happens is a daze
Where I suffocate in this maze.