Yayy exams ova!!!

Its been over 5 days since they're ova but i'm yet rejoicing.....for 1/2 an hour afta exams was jus shoutin xams are ova...lolz ppl thought i am demented....well its been long and loads happened i'm sure that's a given since ma life can't stay stagnant in any way....hmmm dat day went out wid frnds had a blast...went to juhu beach n got drenched 2 n felt like free when i ran down the slope wid ma arms outstretched.....hmmm da joys of uncurbed running....have been singing I believe I can fly a lot of lately n believe me its beautiful!!! Though was stared dowm by mom cos was home late...actually hardly any days hav i entered b4 9 since 3 months...but its vactions so its k.

Went to Essel World (I kno cliched but that's where evber1 wanted 2 go) and had a lot o fun though missed ma closest friends in coll....lil controversy dere but i guess it's k cos i don like 2 stop maself frm doin wht ma heart feels like doin n advisor mom 2 had 2 say dat "girl, do not stop urself n go cos u can't stay happy 4 long if u don't do wht u wanna"....luv ya mom...n happy b'day again....she jus knows me soo well n ya well gorged on cotton candy a.k.a buddhi ka baal (lolz) n golas n popcorn.... every1 was lke u've come 2 eat ova here it seems....though rock n roll did rearrange all ma gray matter ,dats da only one dere dat can give me jeepers cos u feel at times ur brains are gonna blow out and ur always scared da one opposite u may puke(eeeeeeeeeew) but nonetheless it rox...thunder n aqua dive 2 were fun....its gonna be one long post so brace urself...n a frnd o mine was like r u always like dis in ur world chirpy n chillin...well a visit here wud probably ans his question but yeah i was like its a picnic so wat the hell will be chirpy ony na...did ice skain 2 da big incentive 2 go dere!!! Fell down while laughin at dat frnd fall ....deserves me.....hehehehe

Heehee after 2 very funfilled days was on a high and spent da entire Sunday cut off from everythin n spent it on da idiot box n went for a play in da eve n was really touched...it was a comedy on how old people are treated n did cry (not sumin i do usually in movies or plays) but couldn't help it when u see a mother break down n beg her son 2 let her stay in one corner of da house n she would eat ony one time f required n become an unpaid aaya n servant...I mean how can nebody ever do dat 2 their parents...da very people who raise u who spend their lifetime in making u da person u are who bring u into dis world are shunned by u when they reach an age where they need ur support....was disgusted at the thought of such people....downright scums!!!

Neways can fill an entire post on dis topic...so yeah monday again i spent da entire day out n met up wid a bunch o frnds....it was nice i liked da movie speedracer....well it was basically a packed day met up wid dis frnd i had neva met ony spoken ova da fone wid....long story how we talk soo much ova da fone but had neva seen each oder.....she was fun, a common frnd da guy who introduced us well he keeps on tellin me she's a kiddo don't do tht 2 her cos we both keep on pullin each oder's leg n soo funny cos he get's way meaner than i do wid her...its sweet n ya he hates bein called dat wierdo but call him a jackass n he'll be downrite happy...

Yesterday tho was da best cos i spent da rest o da day in heaven readin a buk called Inca Gold a thriller really nice n well it got me lukin up stuff on da incas really interestin stuff...a book is a joy unparalleled....downloaded juno waitin 2 watch it!!!

Btw was really happy when a frnd said dat i always m doin sumin or da oder....cos i don't like doin nuin...yayeee.....adios amigos will keep postin

P.S was wonderin if n internship to do a feasibility study of a product made sense???

N finally a chirpy 1 n surely full of life wid a blow by blow account o da las 5 days....i hope i din try da oatience 4 too long.....

A stream of words form random thoughts which cause a sea of conflict in my mind as I wonder how I can talk so sanely when I have to tell friends tat studies are most important and we should jus put everything away but in reality have da greatest difficulty following it...how come words of wisdom fall so easily but despite knowing it can't really follow them....why these painful stabs of longing....mood swings so bad that I wonder if a lunatic asylum is da place to be....why I suppress my true feelings so much that even close friends are shocked when i simply state da truth ...

y can't i have dat flawless skin back... is da sparkle out of my eyes gone....left behind da dead skin without any glow...is it really true tat love makes one beautiful...can i kill dat beautician who messed up da clean up...can i jus have a single perfect day...y are da monsoons so far away..y do i have so many y's???

Where is dat someone....rather who is dat someone....y is da wait so long? It's not that important but yet these thoughts consume me in their entirety...make me feel like i am waiting for someone to come and fill in the spaces and the hollowness...da kind where u live in a bubble where superficially you are happy you are sad you are excited and go through all da emotions but in reality there is just a vaccuum and the only occasional visitors there are sadness and loneliness...

And momentary elevation of feelings when they fall are deeper than the deepest pits of hell....

Expectations as usual were my downfall ...

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broken hearts, broken mind, broken spirit......